Random Ramble...Men???...hahaha

So, I went out Friday night...yes by my damn self...because I needed a break. A breather. Something to get my mind off of all this clutter. I do this often because I have a hard time finding dates anyway.

This "date night" was the movie, The Hitman. I'm a big action-flick junkie and ohmigoodness! Was the dude that played the Hitman "lovely" or what? He was just gorgeous. I'm not usually into bald men, but he looked mighty fine. Anyway, I enjoyed the movie.

But, I wonder what some of these white boi's are thinking? I was standing in line and there was this white guy in front of me. He seemed alone also. I'm really not paying much attention to him until he asks me about the movies that are playing. I am not good at hiding my body language, so I know I looked at him like "where have you been, dude?". But, I'm polite. I tell him about each of the movies and of course, me not really thinking too much into it, tells him "I'm gonna see "The Hitman"...blah..blah..blah" He buys his ticket before me (I'm listening to my iPod, so I have no idea what he decided on). After I buy my ticket, I walk to the theater and sit down. A dark shadow is looming over me. Now, I'm getting creeped out.

"Are you saving the seat for someone?" he asks. No, I say. "Do you mind if I sit beside you?" It's a free country, I reply. Because I do mind, but I can't be rude. I'm from NY, but I ain't rude! LOL I am giving off all kinds of, "dude, please I am not in the mood.." vibes! Any other time, I may have been alright with striking up a conversation with a stranger, but I wasn't in the mood to be socialable.

He kept trying to get me involved in a conversation. (By then the movie had started). This is not the time to try and pick up a girl, man!

"Have I seen you somewhere before? Is your name...?" I tell him...no. He introduces himself. I do the same, because I am polite. I really want him to turn around and watch the movie, because I want to watch it too.

He proceeds to tell me why he's at the movies. NO!!!!! I want to watch the movie...not start a conversation!!...Good grief? He was very young, early twenties maybe.

Thankfully, he caught a hint, but I hauled ass out of that theatre, before he could "walk me" to my car. It's 12:30am I am not about to converse with you.

Now, no, he is not the type of guy I go for and he was very, very young. I'm in my early thirties, he was just in his twenties if that. I probably wouldn't have minded getting to know him, making a new friend. I was just not receptive. Is that wrong of me? I don't know.

On another note, the next evening, I went to a casino with a friend of mine I'd been talking to for just a short while. Only spent an hour, but it was fun. Afterwards, we chatted online the next morning and planned to get together for coffee, but he couldn't at the last minute. So I get an IM this evening after a busy day asking if something was wrong..etc. This guy is in my peer group, about a year or two older than me. I'm still wondering how me not being able to chat with him during the day, cause we kept missing each other, constituted to me not liking him or rejecting him in some way?

My last date-date I had (a month ago), I spent the whole night trying to keep this guys hands off of me. He just made me uncomfortable. The smelling of the hair, the constant touching, the whole damn clingy factor. It was our first date!!!! I don't know you well enough to get down like that!

I had never had my space invaded like that without my permission. He wanted me to "wrap" my arm through his, which I think is very intimate and for a "girlfriend/boyfriend" type relationship. I told him No, that I didn't feel comfortable with him yet to be so touchy feely. He stared at me the whole evening, which made me more uncomfortable (I probably would have been flattered, had he talked while doing it). I felt that I was carrying the whole conversation. (I hate silence, especially when you are just getting to know a person. There should be more than enough to talk about if you really are interested in one another).

I don't know what it was. I wasn't giving the wrong impression to any of these men. I am a very laid back person, very open, and polite. On all these situations, I think they each were just these personalities that made me wonder what do men think when they go out with women. What are they thinking when they are near me in particular!

It is very confusing when I think about it and I have a mind to just stop going out with the men in this area. They are creepy.

Dee